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Literature
Existence and Life
The point,
There is none.
I can't forget about it.
Listen hun.
Hear the emptiness,
Of this life.
There's nothing to do,
But live in strife.
I can't exist,
I can't just exist.
I need to live,
Not just be pissed.
The rage builds,
And my hopes fray.
Please my dear,
Take this all away.
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Literature
Running
I ran.
I ran out of words.
I ran out of time.
I ran out of patience.
I ran out of luck.
I ran out of this...
Whatever this is.
Whatever anything is.
I'll keep running.
You may see me again.
When I find myself.
When I finally stop running.
Just please...
Don't run after me.
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Literature
Smile For Some Reason (Prompt)
Oh I smile and smile,
As the kids play on the swing,
I'm not sure why,
At least not at first.
I smile and smile,
Deliciously,
Teeth bared,
In my canine mouth.
I smile and smile,
That alligator smile,
Schadenfreude here and there,
As the fire starts everywhere.
I smile and smile,
I can't help but smile,
When the world is ending,
To my phoenix fire.
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Literature
The Boy, The Girl and The Train
He couldn’t find it,
So he left.
He lost it all,
So he gave more away.
He hurt,
So he cut.
His body broke,
So he ran.
They hated it,
So he changed.
She had found it,
So she lost it.
She found him,
So she hit him.
She was scared,
So she ran.
The train,
The pain.
So fast,
So easy.
Selfish?
Or too damaged?
She was gone,
He was gone.
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Literature
More Mistakes
"Don't fuck it up."
Too late.
"You didn't have to."
I couldn't stop it.
"It's over now."
I know, I know,
It was my fault.
"You never help."
I couldn't do anything.
"You didn't try."
I did.
But I failed.
"Don't cry."
Why?
"Don't be weak."
I am.
"Then leave."
But the people.
"Would do better without you."
One mistake...
"That's all it takes."
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Literature
This Darkness, Your Darkness (Prompt)
I am the darkness,
The opposite to you,
Your light may shine upon me,
But it is never enough
To expel my darkness,
This dark love I feel for you,
But you love me,
And it...
As it brings you pleasant sleep,
And wondrous dreams.
Why would you destroy
What you desire?
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Literature
Motivation or Lack Thereof
Drive me dear mind!
Show me the path!
Lead me along!
Maybe not.
Just stall on me.
And leave for gas.
Run with me muse!
Teach me your ways!
Show me the secrets!
Or don't.
Run away from me.
Make me lose my motivation.
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Literature
Kitsune's Grace
Come hither little fox, sit on my lap,
Drink from my fountain, of eternal spring,
Don't be afraid dear kitsune, fill your heart with grace,
Be thankful young one, or perhaps you are old,
Sleep where you want, in my house of dreams,
This place is mine, but also yours,
Lie with me now fox, the company to my mind,
Fox of muse, fox of life.
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Literature
Keys and Light (Prompt)
I was a key,
A way to open,
Someone's mind,
I'd let them see,
Their true emotion.
Then I was a light switch,
So people could see,
Even in that dark place,
Of their mind.
But they were all I was,
Nothing more,
Than a tool to be used,
At least that's how I felt.
Now I'm a light,
For someone else,
I guide him through,
His past and present,
I to the future,
That contains us both.
And...
I love it.
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Literature
Come to Bed
I'm tired now,
Let me sleep,
On this bed of spikes,
In this room of eyes.
Aren't you tired?
We've spoken so much,
To those strangers,
With their strange errs.
Come and sleep,
Next to me,
Rest your head,
On my heart beat.
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Literature
AsFIXiation (Prompt)
Just relax,
Let it out,
Now stop!
Stay calm,
You don't need it,
Trust me!
It'll feel good,
I promise you this,
Be happy!
No more wasting,
That precious air,
I said stop!
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Literature
A Hole in my Mind
They fell at my feet,
To be kicked in the face.
They jumped to the ground,
To feel my wrath.
But they didn't know,
They never knew.
Pain goes both ways,
To you and to me.
So I fell to my knees,
Clutching my feet.
I jumped to to ground,
To avoid the heat.
Fall with me now,
And perhaps you will see.
Jump down this hole,
Into my mind.
The pain goes both ways,
And I tear myself up.
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Literature
Changes for the Better
Long brown hair,
A bow on a headband,
Shoulders are bare,
Sadly 5'11" she would stand.
Bold lipstick making a statement,
And eyeshadow just the right shade,
Stare into the mirror and lament,
Just wanting into the crowd to fade.
They will stare,
At that pretty girl,
Her skin so fair,
The bangs in her hair furl.
The work done to look that way,
Time spent well,
And come what may,
She would never tell.
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Literature
Step Across the Line (Prompt)
"There it is."
What is it?
"The edge of the zone."
What does it mark?
"What you feel like doing."
"Where you feel like being."
Do I have to cross it?
"Do you want to change?"
I don't want to be him.
"Then you must."
And if I don't?
"True comfort is out there."
But I feel comfort here.
"Do you really?"
...Help me cross it.
"Take my hand."
"We shall find her."
Yes...
That is what I wish.
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Literature
Monster, Death and Pain
Monster inside, stirring and shaking,
Death beneath, hungry and angry,
Pain within, careful and precise.
Monster inside, watches out,
Death beneath, wanting release,
Pain within, like a surgen's scalpel.
Monster inside, no where to run,
Death beneath, it's always coming,
Pain within, no longer a threat.
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Literature
Just Pretty
They say I'm handsome, but I want to be pretty,
They say I'm smart, but I wish to stay witty,
They say I'm not crazy,
But this world is so hazy,
They tell me to run,
But others say that's not fun,
I just want to be pretty,
Not gay or bi, simply pretty.
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Favourites

Literature
Color Wheel
Blue hates red,
despite all the dead.
Red hates blue,
despite all the few.
Orange and green
are the battles unseen.
Purple and gold
are battles once sold.
The darks and the lights,
are the littlest fights.
The blacks and the whites:
endless days and nights.
Hate is all that color feels,
It's hate that made the color wheel.
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Literature
Slumber
Only within the depths of sleep
One hears nothing
One sees nothing
One feels nothing
And all is fair in the world
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Literature
Passed Me By
I guess at the time
I forgot where I was going
I got sidetracked
Distracted by something shiny
But nothing real
So lost in the moment
In the desperation to be young
I realised too late
That's not who I was meant to be
I want to go back
Back to my solitude 
When I was content
 
But time only goes one way
I remember now where I want to go
Only now it is too far off
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Literature
Family
Blood
Means nothing
However family
Means everything
It means one doesn’t abandon
Their father, mother or siblings
Families stand together
Even in when facing down the army of hell
No one is forgotten or left behind
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Literature
Away from me
Your split visage
accepts me so gorgeously.
With your eyes reflecting adoring,
yet gracious,
denial
and your smile bravely connecting
the words to heart.
Take it.
You deserve nothing less
and I am blessed to
know the smooth and clunky
spectacle of a person
you so lovingly are.
Take it.
The growl of the anxious
the depressed
the hesitant
the self-roasting
and
feel it bubble wrap
the gentle muffle
of the price popping within.
Take it.
Savour the sweeteners
that are the
undeniable
truths in your window panes
and where I sit
at your windowsill
is the paper weight
of reminders.
Take it.
Repetitiveness of the hypocritically close
loves
I should hope
in spite of it all you'll accept more
to come from me.
To hear and validate
that balance of
light.
Take it.
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Literature
The Engine of War
No quarter, no cruelty
No mercy, No hate
No courage, no fear
No hope or despair,
Only death unrepentant
In fire and steel.
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Literature
Ideal world
Money has no meaning
in the world of which I'm dreaming.
The dead won't toss and turn,
for their children live to learn.
The wars won't be a list of the fallen,
They'll be a list of everyone's calling.
Blood won't be shed in my world so divine,
because the world of which I'm dreaming is only in my mind.
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Literature
The Pit
In the darkness
Where we dwell
The endless deep
We know so well
The demons here
So dire and fell
All shadows of the self
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Literature
Clocks And Rollercoasters
Clocks and rollercoasters
Order and horses
From which I never fell,
I am a runner myself
Stuck between reality
And the looking glass
Reflecting all my past
Has made me one
I'm a reflection
Of fears and black knights
Of broken tales and past fights
I'm a collection
Of hopes and bright skies
Of projects and free smiles
Pick one, and you'll find
The way I'll feel tonight
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Literature
Touching the Mirror
Found you
For a few days
Now you're gone
She's still in the hallway
She's still sad
I will be back
You will be here
But the clock is ticking
And waiting is no different
No different than tearing up
Because of a steel pin
In your wrists
In the morning
Touching the mirror
Gives me shivers
Your fingers are so cold
And distant
It all always comes back to you
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Literature
Uncertainty
It wasn't because of the words
You had spoken,
When you laid your head down.
I was lying there,
With my eyes closed,
And your silence was too loud for me to sleep.
I thought it might cut me
To get to close to you.
And in that strange moment,
All I could think about
Was the time you first asked me
My name.
How you had broken the still
Quiet of the room
With your voice.
And how my own
Echoed back like ripples
Inside my head,
Disturbing the waters of my solitude
Where I treaded,
Sounding unfamiliar on my tongue.
I'll never forget how unsure of myself I felt,
So I laughed,
Because,
Who startles at their own name?
Now that I lie here at night,
In darkness,
Next to you at last
And yet so much more distant
Than that day we met as strangers,
Thinking,
This is that same feeling.
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Literature
What do I do
Left or right
Earth or Dreams
Head or Empty mind
You damn black hole
Burning my house down
Sucking my grey matter away
Hate and love you like
Sex and cuddles
Stop robbing me of
my sleep
Who knows what it'll be
Of me
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Literature
Space Travel
Speeding faster than light,
Planets and satellites blur completely
Amidst the black nothingness,
Creating a pocket through time,
Escaping into the depths of space.
Tirelessly, we journey on,
Riding space-time
As we venture in our spaceship,
Velocity a universal constant,
Each moment in solitary comfort
Lingering between us.
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Literature
Rain
Rain
Falling down
Unbidden tears of clouds
Onto mortal ground
Bring life
To many things
Cleansing and Washing
The dirt away
Rain on mortal ground
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Literature
The Yearning
How does one describe such yearning?
Always consuming my every thought.
I feel her in my stomach, churning
Gradually turning me distraught.
I’m beset by unrelenting emptiness
Which only her love can fill
How can she bring me such happiness
When her presence eludes me still?
Her allure has rendered me tethered
Which no force could possibly break.
Yet I let my heart become weathered
She’s the one I’ll never forsake.
Like a flame that’s constantly burning
How does one survive such yearning?
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Literature
Heart, Mind, and Soul
We were pulled from each other
ripped apart
you hidden from my sight
and I was cast into the darkness
blind I became
filled with rage and despair
yet in that abyss
I found the light
deep inside my soul
it felt like a calm tide in the afternoon
that was set in motion after a horrid storm
it did the impossible
healing my wounds
reverting my scars
every piece of me scattered throughout
time and space
reformed into who I was supposed to be
and at that moment
I could see your smile
I saw the stars
and the vast chasm that was space
in due time
I would make my way back to you
where the hearts confided in each other
and the minds relaxed in peace
that moment
that place
where our souls
melded
and intertwined into
who we are for each other.
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I can't quite believe it's been 6 months since I joined! It feels like only yesterday! I've met some wonderful people and read some amazing work, I haven't met anyone I haven't liked on here or who has been mean to me. And that's really good seeing as I have a fair amount of stuff I'm going through. (But I know a lot of the people on here are as well).

I'd like to thank all the people who watch me and have encouraged me to keep writing!  And to say that I'm going to keep posting! You are all so lovely! :heart:

Have a good one y'all!

~Jenny
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  • Reading: Poems mainly (It's kind of a job now)
  • Watching: Youtube videos
  • Playing: So many games!
  • Eating: Muffin
  • Drinking: H2O2 (I think I should be dead by now)

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PsychosisIsReal
Jenny
United Kingdom
I love to write and draw. They are the ways I express myself and vent usually, so don't be surprised if you see a lot of dark imagery.

And yes, I have been diagnosed with psychosis. And it's about as bad as you probably think it is.

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The point,
There is none.

I can't forget about it.
Listen hun.

Hear the emptiness,
Of this life.

There's nothing to do,
But live in strife.

I can't exist,
I can't just exist.

I need to live,
Not just be pissed.

The rage builds,
And my hopes fray.

Please my dear,
Take this all away.
I ran.
I ran out of words.
I ran out of time.
I ran out of patience.
I ran out of luck.
I ran out of this...
Whatever this is.
Whatever anything is.

I'll keep running.
You may see me again.
When I find myself.
When I finally stop running.

Just please...
Don't run after me.
Running
Sometimes we just run. To what? We are not always sure.

I seem to have lost a lot of my motivation to write at the moment. But this is the best way I know how to tell you all.
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Oh I smile and smile,
As the kids play on the swing,
I'm not sure why,
At least not at first.

I smile and smile,
Deliciously,
Teeth bared,
In my canine mouth.

I smile and smile,
That alligator smile,
Schadenfreude here and there,
As the fire starts everywhere.

I smile and smile,
I can't help but smile,
When the world is ending,
To my phoenix fire.
Smile For Some Reason (Prompt)
Mwahahaha. Some people just want to watch the world burn.

This is a prompt piece! One I enjoyed way too much. Like last week we turned something dark into something light, here we had to turn something light into something dark! So here is mine for the prompt 'When you just smile for no reason' over on TheWriterGang.

It just spoke to me! Anyway, hope you all enjoy it!
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He couldn’t find it,
So he left.

He lost it all,
So he gave more away.

He hurt,
So he cut.

His body broke,
So he ran.

They hated it,
So he changed.

She had found it,
So she lost it.

She found him,
So she hit him.

She was scared,
So she ran.

The train,
The pain.

So fast,
So easy.

Selfish?
Or too damaged?

She was gone,
He was gone.
The Boy, The Girl and The Train
The thoughts are too easy for some. But at least that's all they are... thoughts.
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"Don't fuck it up."

Too late.

"You didn't have to."

I couldn't stop it.

"It's over now."

I know, I know,
It was my fault.

"You never help."

I couldn't do anything.

"You didn't try."

I did.
But I failed.

"Don't cry."

Why?

"Don't be weak."

I am.

"Then leave."

But the people.

"Would do better without you."

One mistake...

"That's all it takes."
More Mistakes
Voices are loud when they are in your head.
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PeriodicFable Featured By Owner May 8, 2017   Writer
Thank you so dearly for the favourite, it means heaps to me! How are you?
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PsychosisIsReal Featured By Owner May 9, 2017
You're welcome!
I'm alright, got a lot going on at the moment so it's making doing stuff on here difficult. How are you?
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PeriodicFable Featured By Owner May 9, 2017   Writer
I'm sorry to hear that, I'm sure you're really busy with full-on things! :( Good luck with everything, I hope it all works out well Jenny. I am great, thank you!
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PsychosisIsReal Featured By Owner May 10, 2017
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Yeah. Things are busy. It should all work out okay though.
That's good to hear! :D
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HalleyAmbers Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the fave! I really appreciate it <3 
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PsychosisIsReal Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2017
You're welcome! :la:
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madam--guillotine Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
:happybounce: +fav 
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PsychosisIsReal Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2017
:la:
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madam--guillotine Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
:D (Big Grin) 
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HalleyAmbers Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the fave!
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