PsychosisIsReal

You should hate me. I mean it. Hate me... Please. All those things I did. Everything I said. The ways I hurt you. The ways I left you. You lost me. Sometimes you lost me. I'm here now. But you should hate me. And now this. Now all of this. You can't forgive me... I know. So hate me. Hate how I feel. And maybe it will happen. Maybe it won't. Maybe... You'll hate me forever. Maybe... I won't be the one you want. But maybe... You'll forgive me.

The point, There is none. I can't forget about it. Listen hun. Hear the emptiness, Of this life. There's nothing to do, But live in strife. I can't exist, I can't just exist. I need to live, Not just be pissed. The rage builds, And my hopes fray. Please my dear, Take this all away.

I ran. I ran out of words. I ran out of time. I ran out of patience. I ran out of luck. I ran out of this... Whatever this is. Whatever anything is. I'll keep running. You may see me again. When I find myself. When I finally stop running. Just please... Don't run after me.

Oh I smile and smile, As the kids play on the swing, I'm not sure why, At least not at first. I smile and smile, Deliciously, Teeth bared, In my canine mouth. I smile and smile, That alligator smile, Schadenfreude here and there, As the fire starts everywhere. I smile and smile, I can't help but smile, When the world is ending, To my phoenix fire.

He couldn’t find it, So he left. He lost it all, So he gave more away. He hurt, So he cut. His body broke, So he ran. They hated it, So he changed. She had found it, So she lost it. She found him, So she hit him. She was scared, So she ran. The train, The pain. So fast, So easy. Selfish? Or too damaged? She was gone, He was gone.

"Don't fuck it up." Too late. "You didn't have to." I couldn't stop it. "It's over now." I know, I know, It was my fault. "You never help." I couldn't do anything. "You didn't try." I did. But I failed. "Don't cry." Why? "Don't be weak." I am. "Then leave." But the people. "Would do better without you." One mistake... "That's all it takes."

I am the darkness, The opposite to you, Your light may shine upon me, But it is never enough To expel my darkness, This dark love I feel for you, But you love me, And it... As it brings you pleasant sleep, And wondrous dreams. Why would you destroy What you desire?

Drive me dear mind! Show me the path! Lead me along! Maybe not. Just stall on me. And leave for gas. Run with me muse! Teach me your ways! Show me the secrets! Or don't. Run away from me. Make me lose my motivation.

Come hither little fox, sit on my lap, Drink from my fountain, of eternal spring, Don't be afraid dear kitsune, fill your heart with grace, Be thankful young one, or perhaps you are old, Sleep where you want, in my house of dreams, This place is mine, but also yours, Lie with me now fox, the company to my mind, Fox of muse, fox of life.

I was a key, A way to open, Someone's mind, I'd let them see, Their true emotion. Then I was a light switch, So people could see, Even in that dark place, Of their mind. But they were all I was, Nothing more, Than a tool to be used, At least that's how I felt. Now I'm a light, For someone else, I guide him through, His past and present, I to the future, That contains us both. And... I love it.

Only within the depths of sleep One hears nothing One sees nothing One feels nothing And all is fair in the world

I guess at the time I forgot where I was going I got sidetracked Distracted by something shiny But nothing real So lost in the moment In the desperation to be young I realised too late That's not who I was meant to be I want to go back Back to my solitude  When I was content   But time only goes one way I remember now where I want to go Only now it is too far off

Blood Means nothing However family Means everything It means one doesn’t abandon Their father, mother or siblings Families stand together Even in when facing down the army of hell No one is forgotten or left behind

Your split visage accepts me so gorgeously. With your eyes reflecting adoring, yet gracious, denial and your smile bravely connecting the words to heart. Take it. You deserve nothing less and I am blessed to know the smooth and clunky spectacle of a person you so lovingly are. Take it. The growl of the anxious the depressed the hesitant the self-roasting and feel it bubble wrap the gentle muffle of the price popping within. Take it. Savour the sweeteners that are the undeniable truths in your window panes and where I sit at your windowsill is the paper weight of reminders. Take it. Repetitiveness of the hypocritically close loves I s

No quarter, no cruelty No mercy, No hate No courage, no fear No hope or despair, Only death unrepentant In fire and steel.

In the darkness Where we dwell The endless deep We know so well The demons here So dire and fell All shadows of the self

Clocks and rollercoasters Order and horses From which I never fell, I am a runner myself Stuck between reality And the looking glass Reflecting all my past Has made me one I'm a reflection Of fears and black knights Of broken tales and past fights I'm a collection Of hopes and bright skies Of projects and free smiles Pick one, and you'll find The way I'll feel tonight

Found you For a few days Now you're gone She's still in the hallway She's still sad I will be back You will be here But the clock is ticking And waiting is no different No different than tearing up Because of a steel pin In your wrists In the morning Touching the mirror Gives me shivers Your fingers are so cold And distant It all always comes back to you

It wasn't because of the words You had spoken, When you laid your head down. I was lying there, With my eyes closed, And your silence was too loud for me to sleep. I thought it might cut me To get to close to you. And in that strange moment, All I could think about Was the time you first asked me My name. How you had broken the still Quiet of the room With your voice. And how my own Echoed back like ripples Inside my head, Disturbing the waters of my solitude Where I treaded, Sounding unfamiliar on my tongue. I'll never forget how unsure of myself I felt, So I laughed, Because, Who startles at their own name? Now that I lie here at

Left or right Earth or Dreams Head or Empty mind You damn black hole Burning my house down Sucking my grey matter away Hate and love you like Sex and cuddles Stop robbing me of my sleep Who knows what it'll be Of me