PsychosisIsReal

You should hate me. I mean it. Hate me... Please. All those things I did. Everything I said. The ways I hurt you. The ways I left you. You lost me. Sometimes you lost me. I'm here now. But you should hate me. And now this. Now all of this. You can't forgive me... I know. So hate me. Hate how I feel. And maybe it will happen. Maybe it won't. Maybe... You'll hate me forever. Maybe... I won't be the one you want. But maybe... You'll forgive me.

The point, There is none. I can't forget about it. Listen hun. Hear the emptiness, Of this life. There's nothing to do, But live in strife. I can't exist, I can't just exist. I need to live, Not just be pissed. The rage builds, And my hopes fray. Please my dear, Take this all away.

I ran. I ran out of words. I ran out of time. I ran out of patience. I ran out of luck. I ran out of this... Whatever this is. Whatever anything is. I'll keep running. You may see me again. When I find myself. When I finally stop running. Just please... Don't run after me.

Oh I smile and smile, As the kids play on the swing, I'm not sure why, At least not at first. I smile and smile, Deliciously, Teeth bared, In my canine mouth. I smile and smile, That alligator smile, Schadenfreude here and there, As the fire starts everywhere. I smile and smile, I can't help but smile, When the world is ending, To my phoenix fire.

He couldn’t find it, So he left. He lost it all, So he gave more away. He hurt, So he cut. His body broke, So he ran. They hated it, So he changed. She had found it, So she lost it. She found him, So she hit him. She was scared, So she ran. The train, The pain. So fast, So easy. Selfish? Or too damaged? She was gone, He was gone.

"Don't fuck it up." Too late. "You didn't have to." I couldn't stop it. "It's over now." I know, I know, It was my fault. "You never help." I couldn't do anything. "You didn't try." I did. But I failed. "Don't cry." Why? "Don't be weak." I am. "Then leave." But the people. "Would do better without you." One mistake... "That's all it takes."

I am the darkness, The opposite to you, Your light may shine upon me, But it is never enough To expel my darkness, This dark love I feel for you, But you love me, And it... As it brings you pleasant sleep, And wondrous dreams. Why would you destroy What you desire?

Drive me dear mind! Show me the path! Lead me along! Maybe not. Just stall on me. And leave for gas. Run with me muse! Teach me your ways! Show me the secrets! Or don't. Run away from me. Make me lose my motivation.

Come hither little fox, sit on my lap, Drink from my fountain, of eternal spring, Don't be afraid dear kitsune, fill your heart with grace, Be thankful young one, or perhaps you are old, Sleep where you want, in my house of dreams, This place is mine, but also yours, Lie with me now fox, the company to my mind, Fox of muse, fox of life.

I was a key, A way to open, Someone's mind, I'd let them see, Their true emotion. Then I was a light switch, So people could see, Even in that dark place, Of their mind. But they were all I was, Nothing more, Than a tool to be used, At least that's how I felt. Now I'm a light, For someone else, I guide him through, His past and present, I to the future, That contains us both. And... I love it.